Author Archive for Jessika Wahls


Give your old clothes a new exciting lease of life….

That was the headline under which i intended the following photo shoot.

I somewhat wanted to make my monster friends a little more sexy, which, with the help of my two beautiful lady friends Anne von Bengard and Franzi Boehm actually turned out to be a real treat for tired eyes, as they basically removed all there clothes to help promote the recycling of old clothes, which is what my little Monsters are 😉

Once i had the idea, i advertised on facebook to people that would potentially be up for a fun project, which i could by no means afford to pay. So everybody involved has been part for the laugh of it, and obviously the wonderful pictures that have already emerged!

Chris Williams of and Carlos-Christian Nickel of                                                                         where pretty much the first two to reply and since i am a fan of both, i decided that it would be a good idea to get them both involved!

The rest of the team was made up out of Helen Dury, who is an extremely talented body-painter and Make up artist as well as the fiance of Chris Williams,- Anja Moehler, who is one of my closest friends as well as the lady in charge of the backstage pics. She also helped with everything there was to do in the background :). And there was me, who basically instigated the whole shoot- the creative director so to speak- as well as the hairstylist and stylist in general 😉

Okay, well in the correct order, it’s Me, Anja and then Helen- for those who don’t know!

As for the rest, there should have been Archibald von Bawdy- the journalist of Monsters and Kink, but he was still away on his travels to Barcelona fetish weekend with friends…

So, sadly, he couldn’t couldn’t join, which meant his cousin Edward von Bawdy had to stand in, and he had a pretty goof time 😉


He also joined me already to his first outing at Torture Garden which was fun (and so did Archy, who came along with my friend Paolo ;),- so sadly not light enough pics of him!)

The rest of the team are obviously- The Monsters and Ink family!


To give you a little sneaky peak of the shoot, i’ll attach some of those mouthwatering pics 😉

The result of the shoot can be seen on my website, that is still very much in progress and on the launch night of Monsters and Ink, which is also yet to be confirmed! They will be exhibited alongside the Monsters, as well as some of my Monster-artwork and at some point of the evening they will be auctioned off as well. So if you wanna get your hands on a print, be sure to be there, as there will be only a limited amount available!

All the Monsters i have made up to that point, will be also up for auction. Each of them is a one-off and will never be reproduced, as those are all my old clothes, and well- once they are gone- that’s it. After that, you are all very welcome to get your own custom made Monster out of that old favorite jumper-shirt or whatever else it is that you are sentimental about 😉

i will be producing some Monsters at the side, of my old clothes too, but will predominantly concentrate on the commissions.

All the information you need will be up on the website , which will be simultaneously launched to the auction, and i honestly recommend to subscribe to this blog, if you want to keep up to date with the development! I shall be updating on here how the site is coming along, as well as the progress of Monsters and Kink- which is in full swing, as i have been interviewing quite a few massively interesting individuals about their Kinks and quirks, and i gotta say- i am amazed,-inspired,-enlightened even, speaking to some of them. So if you are interested in what’s next, you know what to do ;P

That’s enough for today tho xxxx


why i love to be an artist, and in general- why life is great(mostly anyway :)

Hi all, i decided to cram in some general information about all the nice things i was lucky enough to have witnessed in the past few month, as well as the sad ones that nevertheless deserve mentioning. Part of me writing it might be a bit of narcissism, part might be me wanting to share, and yet another part doesn’t want things to be forgotten,- so there, if you’re interested, keep reading, if not..well stop here i suggest 😉 I mentioned this lovely lady before in my blog, but i would like to do it again, as she deserves it massively! Nicole Le Grange- also known as the founder of NIKA,                                                                                                                       She singlehandedly launched her own label a few month back in a lovely little gallery off Oxford street to an exited audience, which of course included me!                                                                                                                Her website is and you should definitely invest some time to check her shoes out! One excitement gone next one was already in the waiting. Mr Philip Levine’s Headism exhibition. It’s still on untill tomorrow, so i strongly recommend popping down there if you have the chance to! Phil has been all over London in an impressive advertising campaign that announced the forthcoming show. If you’d like to read more, check out Also,- i’m in the show- so that alone should be reason enough for you to pop down 😉 Another happy event was Rick and Rosa Tozer’s wedding, which means nothing to anyone who doesn’t know these two lovely creatures, but trust me when i say- they are worth knowing!!!  A -not so nice event- was the earthquake in Japan, as most of you know, though nevertheless did it bring the good people out ones again and out came -DEATH DRAWING- which was an event at the metalworkz in Angel trying to raise funds for Japan. That meant that Santiago Genochio staged an incredible japanese-rope-bondage performance which all attendants then drew.

In addition to that, my lovely little mermaid Anne Von Bengard organized  an art auction, where artists, such as myself could donate a piece of art and the returns were donated too! It was a fun night as i was giving her a hand with the whole event.All in all the whole evening was a great success!

(this was another fundraising artwork of mine for the red cross)

Shortly after that Anne curated another exhibition at a party called RUMPUS, where i had the honor of being part once again.Check out her blog btw! She’s a fabulous artiste in her own right

In general i have to say that the past few month have been massively creative for me, as i have been busy with my monster project, yet to keep sane and not completely drown in ‘monstering’ i drew, i painted  and in general produced a hell of a lot of artwork, which was all in all really very satisfying!

those are but a few results….

Daf and Blondie (Anne) were the first couple of wood-paintings i attempted, followed by those two

and since one of my favorite subjects of all times is and will remain- ME 😛

Of course it’s not just me 😉

Those are woodpaintings of and as mentioned before Philip Levine.

I have been experimenting with mixed media such as paper mache and ‘sort-of’ installations…..

And then recently i started experimenting with ink on bristol, which is an amazingly sharp finish!

The lovely lady on the left is another fellow german and one of the gorgeous models of my Monsters and Kink project. The rather charming looking  spineless c***face on the right is another fabulous example that one should only trust in ones own abilities when it comes to the unrelenting world of working adults, in which everyone tries to get ahead only to serve oneself ….! In short- this is my other half’s ex-boss, and as you may have noticed in the past, people that piss me off deserve my undivided attention, as i believe in Karma, and one of those days spineless individuals will get  back what they so crudely caused in the first place….!

I also designed a couple of T-shirt’s for my friend Anthony Noll’s label

which can be purchased either online or @ Topman as well as selfridges

On a sadder note, i would like to mention my friend Pierre Cassen’s name here, as he sadly passed away on april the 24th 2011. he died of an epileptic fit at the age of 31 in the city i gave my heart to- Barcelona…!

it is amazing how life can snap back into perspective in an instant when you loose a friend…! i still can’t quite grasp my loss here, but i try every day and there will definitely be some artwork involved in my mourning process at some point.

It just goes to show how fragile it all is, and how quick it can be over.It makes me even more determined to try and appreciate everyday to it’s fullest, to be content in what i do- to try and not hurt anyone and to live my life as the gift that it is, to be grateful for what i own and what skills i have, to spend time with the people i love and inspire me, stay away from those that don’t, and to try to inspire others too in the process.

At that i will draw this post to an end, since it’s been quite some essay already. My Monster-update will shortly follow, with all the delicious making off pic, as well as Archie’s adventure into the fetish scene and some more comic action regarding Monsters and Kink



On psychological origins of fetishism-by Archibald von Bawdy

Today I will give you another insight into Fetishism by going back to basics.

Also, Archibald will be going on a trip to Barcelona fetish weekend in a few days, so it will be his first intimate experience in the fetish world! Pictures will follow…


Meet ARCHIBALD VON BAWDY (aka -the guy who brings you Monsters and Kink)

Archibald von Bawdy is a Journalist @ Monsters and Kink. He will venture out into the rampant world of FETISHES to find out for you and for himself, what it is that most people still find so scary about the entire topic.

Not only will he explore what fetishes actually are, but with help of the various volunteers that have already signed up, he will try and get a better insight into what those fetishes actually mean to the individual.

All this will be accompanied by illustrations, which will turn volunteers into some of my monster creations, frankly to move away from commonly used imagery in fetish circles (which personally i quite enjoy) to draw attention to the core of the subject.


I feel there is still a great deal of ignorance, or simply lack of knowledge surrounding the fetish scene, which often leads to misunderstandings, misinterpreting, and blatant dismissing narrow mindedness.

For some, that might be the appeal to be part of that underground scene, yet for others it remains a struggle to accept their “different” side because society is still very quick to make a judgement, if something is not quite what’s considered the norm.

I love the fetish and alternative scene as nowhere else have i met so many flamboyant inspiring characters, met such great deal of open-minded individuals, as well as mutual respect towards each other. So with my comic, i want to try and share with the world what seems to be a subject very close to my heart, as well as to my life!

I am already excited about all the great insights i will no doubt experience on my journey with Archibald, as well as visualizing everything for all of you to get the same experience!


Maybe it will help some people to feel more at ease with being different, or for those like me who rather embrace to be different just an opportunity to learn and share with others- and of course join Mr. Von Bawdy on his titillating adventures! Lets see how it goes!!

For starters a little sneaky peak for those interested how it’ll be 😉






how Monsters became my favorite pastime, and old sins my greatest inspiration.

Right, ..having gone on about my dislike of some contemporary art as well as singing the praises about some important individuals in my life, let’s move on to the monster!

Monsters and ink- that’s what i have called my latest enterprise. It incorporates my new found love of sewing, my old passion of drawing, my curiosity  towards anything new, and perhaps a little alien too.

Those little monsters where born out of a simple need of a christmas present for somebody that basically doesn’t need anything.

What better way to approach this then to make something new out of something old! I created this little creature after a phone application, and basically got so much response, that i went ahead and made more of them, out of whatever shapes my brain could possibly think of.

This little fellow  was the start to something that by know promises to be something not only very exciting but also to  be something  quite lucrative.

I have thought up different alley’s to the main focus -monsters-, and what came out of that by now is the idea, that people send me their old favorite clothes,- something they have always been very fond of or something they frankly have some very intimate memories to, and therefore can’t part with,- so that i can create a very personal gift for them, or frankly something they love looking at.

The second alley would be the -ink- part, which incorporates not only drawing those little creatures, but also creating some kind of life around them.

The idea that i want to detach them from them being children’s toys, as suppose to adult collectors items, brought me to the thought of creating a comic, i.e. giving them personas, and a life on their own.

What better way to approach this then to attach a very difficult theme, such as Kink and Fetish- to something innocent and cuddly such as my little creatures.So born was “Monsters and Kink”, which will explore through different episodes what fetish actually is, why it’s not scary but rather a part of the human psyche, and why people usually rather through fear of the unknown, then through actual experience with the latter avoid any contact to that surreal world.

Fetishes are part of our day to day life and although the majority of people still like to exempt themselves from that. It’s a fact of life that “let’s play master and servant” is not just some coughed up song from the  80th but much more a reflection of human interaction. There has been and always will be a struggle for winning. and denying that is frankly being ignorant.

Anyhow, that will be prime subject of Monsters and Kink comics, and has yet to be realized.

The third, and one of my favorite parts of Monstermania is Photography!

I have thrown myself into a pot with creatives and out came the monster-photography project under the heading of ” give your old clothes a new exciting lease of life!”

Stunning models and incredibly creative concepts of nude photography mingled up with cheeky monsterliciousness will enchant your already confused mind !

So there- the three concepts that currently wont leave my mind rest , or think of much else for that matter, but i believe it’s a great idea, and it will – if nothing else- be an amazing project.

I have learned and experienced a lot in the past two years! I have been broken, -been put together again, i have cried, i have laughed and i have been inspired like i have never been before, and so i thank everybody how took part in that journey, be it deliberate or unintended! You have all been a great source of knowledge and inspiration for me!

I can only wait and see what will happen in the future, but i am more determined, inspired and positive then i have ever been, so i say “carpe diem” and good luck !



My quest for hope…in art and else.

By that i really don’t mean that i don’t understand all of it, but i do have a slight issue with the idea that everything can be art, since- if everything can be art, then it somewhat makes the whole idea of art itself void- for equally- nothing can be art all the same.

In my world, and by no means is that anything for anybody to go by- to be an artist, is to create. I don’t entirely disagree with the notion, that just the idea is already somewhat of a creation, although i simply dislike  art for art’s sake. Meaning- in this day and age, that i like to call “big brother society” were everything must be shocking and outrageous to get any sort of  appreciation, where people are calling themselves realists, which in my eyes are only pessimists in disguise, – in this day and age, i believe what’s needed most, is artists that try and find beauty in the darkest of places.

I like dark art. I like it a lot in fact, though i do believe that it is not the task of the artist to make everything yet worse then it already is, but to try and find, what others can’t seem to see…some kind of beauty or hope maybe in need for other words…!

The more i converse about the same subject, the more questions it holds for me, one major one being: if anything is art- why do we need it any longer. If it entertains an idea, if it is a comment on the world, by no means -then it really is an over prized journal.

I for  one like art to stimulate me, to arouse me, to educate me, to give me hope, to give me an outlet of feelings i would otherwise not be able to digest, and fair enough, other artists make art for all those reasons too, yet i suppose, the great discomfort  prospers in the idea, that some people singlehandedly decide and make, what “contemporary art” is, as well as break the same idea. Say Saachi par example. He decides what is news in the art world. Quite like Rupert Murdoch in the world of news and entertainment, as well as Anna Wintour in the world of fashion.

I can’t quite place where my disconcertment about all this originates from, but it is something that is playing with my mind for quite sometime.

My latest work regarding that very issue, is ” if it wasn’t this, it would be something else”

It’s about my fear of pointlessness, of emptiness, of beauty just flying away like a butterfly. The very subject in the middle being Damian Hirst.

I suppose, it’s not just that. It’s the general hopelessness that i seem to encounter in my contemporaries. The serenity with which people around my age seem to accept the path that lies ahead for them. the numerous friends that encounter there midlife crises by the time they hit 30 , simply for they haven’t done what they have dreamed of when they were a little younger.

They stop challenging ideas, stop questioning what’s right or wrong, and almost feel to tired and worn out to even argue about it. All of it drains the life out of me some times, although at other times it seems to be the very force that keeps me going.

I love people that have an almost childish drive in them, a feeling that still all is possible if one can think it up. The kind that would rather appreaciate beauty then dwell on the ugly. The kind that take “impossible” as a challenge!

I am so fortunate to have people like that in my life because they inspire me so much. I’d really like to take this part of my blog to name but a few of these amazing individuals.

There would be Anne ( blondie) von Bengard

whom i clicked with exceedingly the first moment we’ve met. Anne is a very talented young lady , who looks at the world with the kind of fresh optimism that i like! I love all the colors in her artwork and she is never shy of trying new thing, and discovering herself in the process.

Then there is Philip Levine, whom’s thought-up head designs never cease to amaze me. I feel also very inspired by the drive Mr Levine has when it comes to creativity. He is- it seems – constantly on the go and has his first major exhibition coming up very soon.

There is Nicole Le grange, a fantastic south african lady that i met in a pub and whom’s energy and drive is very much inspiring to me! She too had recently her first launch of her own shoe label Nika- love art wear art

One last one, because otherwise this page will never end, is- lovely Jane Moore. She is also an illustrator and has recently launched her cartoon website ” ugly bug”

I love her illustrations, and she is a damn fine lady on top of that!

This is to name only a few as my list could go on forever, but i guess in writing it down, i am somewhat trying to keep myself aware of just how many great inspiring people i have in my life.

So i guess, to conclude( and that’s only for now) I wont stop trying to understand the deeper meaning of art and being as such, but i suppose as long as i have such fantastic people close to me, i am not lost at all!

Art is like masturbation.
It is selfish and introverted and done for you and you alone.

Design is like sex. there is someone else involved,
their needs are just as important as your own,
and if everything goes right,
both parties are happy in the end.

– Colin Wright




The past year….

My past year in terms of blogging…very lazy…..very lazy indeed!
But there you go, new year, new blog, new ideas and plenty of them!
But to begin one must start where one ended, and that was pretty much january 2010.
I should think the easiest way to approach writing about a whole year, is to categorize it into important events.
So there was- my move to Streatham,- a chance encounter with a chapelier, a hatter so to say, through whom i had the honour of representing my country @ the Royal Ascot, by wearing a rather eccentric head piece…

That week was an exciting one, as i managed to pull off wearing one dress on 3 different occasions…
The Royal Ascot,- my brothers wedding and Torture garden ….;)

That’s what i call- RESULT 🙂

Before all of that, i had an even more exciting event happening, which even in the grand scheme of things, will be holding up against a lot for years to come! My stint @ the Tate Modern.

To begin wih i must thank Mr. Luis Franck, without whom this would have never happened, so:
To cut a semi long story short, it was the 10th anniversary of the Tate Modern, and the , a new and exciting exhibition for non professional artists, got a spot in the Turbine Hall.
One had to go there with ones piece of art, face a jury that would not only scrutinize the art piece, but also dug deep into who YOU are.
And then you wait….and wait…… and then at some point, when all hope had faded away, a lovely lady came strolling towards me, adorned with my painting, which i was already preparing to take home with me again, only to inform me, that in fact “my dead little bird” was chosen to be hung in the exhibition.

This should have felt like a grand moment, since in retrospective-it was, yet it didn’t feel like anything much at all.
I suppose the saying applies “happiness is only real when shared”
That couldn’t have been any truer that very moment.I had to leave the building and make my way home, until slowly, very slowly feelings of relief, excitement, and surely a bit of pride set in.

The painting has been donated to the exhibition and remains with it, as i felt it a fitting ‘send-off’ to a rather upsetting, if informative time of my life.
The boy on the painting likes to call himself Sigmund and has contributed to a great deal of enlightenment, but also to an even greater amount of upset and despair.
It was the perfect time to close that chapter!
There was one more attempt to clear my system of what he had unsettled and troubled, but i had to abort it and admit to myself, that the upset had gone as well as the scorn, and replaced with some kind of indifference.
The painting is now resting soundly beneath a rather interesting new piece of art, which is still very much in the making!
I can safely say, that i became to happy to remain hurt and resentful, to further give my attention to somebody, that didn’t deserve it in the first place.
All the latter mentioned has happened since i fell in love. And when i say fell, i suppose the correct term would be falling, as i am still falling every day….

The reason for enclosing all these rather personal details to my state of mind and my emotions is quite simple.
I suppose some of my best pieces yet, have been born out of extrem despair as well as uplifting happiness , neither of which is a constant state, though it is and remains within my art and is without a doubt one of the main driving forces.

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